Me pregunto en qué momento se giró el mundo y se puso del revés. En algun momento, alguien o algo decidió que el orden natural de las cosas era aburrido, y que era mejor que todo se pusiera del revés...
O quizás simplemente ha estado así durante mucho tiempo, y ahora es el momento de tocar de pies en el suelo y ver que la vida es muy dura de sobrellevar.
Mientrastanto, seguimos adelante... y cada día me levanto y pienso, bueno, peor que esto no puede ser... pero se ve que sí! Que cosas..!!
The sun begins to shine, and the capacity to forget seems to come with it.
Maybe it isn't so hard after all. Maybe it's just a question of finding the ME in me. Remembering who I was before it all began, and finding out what has actually changed and what was only a possible, imaginary life that never actually existed.
Your lies are yours, not mine. My world is real, on the ground, and full of potential happiness. Not you or anyone can take that away from me.
At some point I lost the capacity to see what was in front of my eyes, but at least I never forgot who I was. Maybe you never actually knew. No one has ever left you alone to suffer your own consequences. So here's your chance.
You take what you want in life, not what is given to you. If you choose the dark lane, then so be it. I choose the light, I choose happiness, and you won't pull me down with you.
I am free, free from you, free from myself, free from all those illusions that only seem to hurt us in the best of cases.
And this is my song, dedicated to those who believe that the sun can shine, and that real life isn't that bad at all. Those who aren't afraid of freedom, those who don't need to hide in their own shadow to keep on. Those who don't rely on coincidence, but on cause.
Because I loved you, and I gave you everything. And now I realise it was just me, myself and I.
Don't listen to the words, just remember the meaning of the melody, and the harmonies we could have created together.
At last, the calm of a blank mind, of a mindless wonder...
No pain, just exhaustion. And I ask myself how long it will take for this to be my day to day.
Because blank is better than pain. Nothingness is better that a pot full of sadness.
And then one day you wake up, and suddenly it's all gone. You have the strength to look up and smile because the summer has arrived...
Walk along the road alone. Look up and see the skies above you. You're alone.
It's you who has to move on and find the happinness you seek. Happinness doesn't appear from giving it to others, it comes when you look inside yourself and realise who you are. Only then can you understand the true meaning of love.
Love is born inside you. Find it before you look for anything else.
No sorry, no goodbye.
Just rain drops slipping down my face, mixing with those created by my own body.
And I stand there, believing that a better life is possible, but unable to find the way there.
I asked Perly how if there are any methods to remember things that our mind has deleted. He said: "I don't think that's a good idea right now. How about taking things one step at a time?"
But I don't want to take things one step at a time. I want to remember what I have forgotten, because I need it now. And I want to forget what has just happened in the last two years of my life.
I dreamt of her today. She came up to me and said, "I'm breaking up with you cos I've decided to be with Ruben". I looked at her. "Why with him? He's not really your style... is he?" As I looked at her, convinced that she was going to be with Ruben, and that his girlfriend had agreed to break up with him... I thought; "something's not quite right here. It's very strange that you should want to be with Ruben... isn't he a bit infantile for you?"...
I woke up too early this morning. And then I realised what it was... Ruben is my 10 year old student. How could she, being 19, want to be with Ruben? My mind plays tricks on me to brighten up these grey days, cos it's pretty funny if you think about it.
What would you answer if somebody suddenly told you that your life begins today? None of what you have lived before was ever real, and you now have the chance to rebuild yourself, to reinvent your existence...
That is why this blog exists. Because from today, and only from today, my life is new. Nothing to do with what it ever was.
